I caught up with my friend who is working two days while her daughter goes to childcare for those two days. I asked her what it was like and she said that even though she only works two days, she misses her daughter so much because she spends so much time with her that it's become her routine. She said it feels odd when she has to drop her daughter at childcare and come to work just for two days. Her answer really surprised me as I thought she would feel privileged to have the best of both worlds.
I find myself in the dilemma of career vs mum. Having worked in the same position and in the same place for 6 years, I feel that it is the right time to advanced my career. Challenge myself. But I also hear myself telling me to go the other way and to take a step back, perhaps even drop a day. I would love to spend time moulding Isaac's character and development while he is still young and the window of opportunity is there. I find that I don't really have a friend who is in a similar position as I am in and find myself floating through this phase of life rather aimlessly. My mum was mostly a stay at home mum and when she did work it often fell in line with our schedules. Mum was always there during my growing up years and even though I don't remember many events, I remember some..just of us at home, nowhere far away or fancy. I remember once when I was in kinder, she got us to create our own menu and we wrote down all our favourite foods. I remember her cooking her simple but oh so yummy macaroni and Ikan bilis soup for lunch. I wish my Isaac could have memories like that too..just simple things we did everyday. I don't remember our Saturday nights but somehow it's the day to day memories that have stuck.