Sunday, 9 March 2014
Tuesday, 4 February 2014
I remember when I was 12 years old, I wished I was 15. When I was 15, I wished I was 18. Now that I am in my late twenties, I sometimes wish I was 12 again! As a 12 year old, life seemed so exciting. Going out for the first time without your parents, meeting guys, buying your own clothes, dressing up. It must be a parent's nightmare to let their little baby go. But for a teen, life is just beginning.
It's funny how some memories come back to you all of a sudden. I remember there was this shopping mall that my friends and I used to go to. As usual, the cinemas were on the top floor. The usual past time those days was watching movies. At that age and through my teen years, that was always the main event whenever we went out. A movie ticket used to only be RM9 and it was air conditioned and comfortable. Plus, at that age, apart from studying, there was nothing else to worry about. I remember sometimes I would watch the same movie twice because I went out with two different groups of friends who wanted to watch the same movie! Anyway, back to the shopping mall. There was this set of escalators that took you up to where the cinema was and that was where the meeting point was. I would normally go to the mall with a few close friends and sometimes we would meet other friends there..sometimes there were friends of friends. I remember feeling nervous every time I got on that escalator because those who were waiting would look down to see who was coming up the escalator. Sometimes there were guys and I would feel so self conscious of how I looked and what I was wearing. I probably looked confident on the outside but wasn't really on the inside. I remember asking my mum how she could feel so comfortable with my dad because I was often quite embarrassed if I were to meet a guy.
Leaving school and then going to college was another exciting adventure. After having to iron my school uniforms and wash my school shoes for years, finally all that would be swapped for casual clothes and jeans. You could colour your hair and wear and do anything you wanted to. Studying in English was so much fun and we had cool lecturers who were funny and made classes interesting to go to. Plus I was studying Psychology. College was way too fun and cool.
I'm not writing this just to reminisce about my life but I find it interesting that at different stages in life, you see things differently. At 12, life was about you and your friends. You love your parents but kind of wish the boundaries were a little bit more flexible. At 18, the boundaries are loosen and you slowly find your independence. Life is so exciting with so many new things to discover. Of course, you start to understand and feel the weight of responsibilities as you take charge of yourself especially if you are living away from home. Now in my late twenties, it feels like I lack that enthusiasm for life as compared to when I was 12 or 18. I have been there, done that. I have total freedom and independence but responsibilities now rest heavily on my shoulders. I now start to see things how my parents did. I find myself walking in their shoes. I know that there is so much more to discover about this life and so many exciting things to do and see but these are all external things that would probably only bring temporal satisfaction. I am seeking something with a higher purpose that can bring fulfillment not just to my family and myself but one that will leave an impact on people and future generations. I know there is a calling that God has placed on my life and I need to earnestly seek Him so that I can travel down that path. My own selfish ambitions have only brought so little satisfaction to my life. It is time for me to open my ears, eyes and take a leap of faith. A life of faith, now that is what I call exciting!
New Living Translation (NLT)
“But blessed are those who trust in the Lord
and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.
They are like trees planted along a riverbank,
with roots that reach deep into the water.
Such trees are not bothered by the heat
or worried by long months of drought.
Their leaves stay green,
and they never stop producing fruit.
Monday, 3 February 2014
In the last few years, I haven't taken the time to make any new year's resolutions. I guess it is because I often make them for the sake of making them and then not fulfill them because I can't find any use for them. For example, I used to say I would like to learn to speak mandarin but never got around to really doing any serious learning because I never found a need to use it. Perhaps if I booked a trip to China, then I would be more motivated to do some serious learning.
This year I have decided to make a few new year's resolutions. I guess it has been a while since I challenged myself to learn a new skill. You learn many skills growing up such as riding a bicycle, playing badminton, tennis, swimming, pushing yourself academically, etc. However, ever since graduating, I have been using and improving on skills I already possess..not learning anything new. So this year, I am going to challenge myself to learn something new. Perhaps learning to crochet. Lots of people do it and enjoy it so I think it would be fun to give it a go. Time to get myself some tools!
Wednesday, 29 January 2014
We celebrated Isaac's first birthday on 18 January, a week earlier than his actual birthday (25 Jan) because Ken's parents were here and people were going away on the Australia day weekend. I guess his future birthday parties might be the same as well since his birthday is one day before Australia day.
I usually cater food when we hold parties. Cooking is just too much of a hassle and sometimes the unexpected could happen. However, this time around, since we were holding an afternoon tea, we figured the food prep should be simpler and quicker. Unfortunately, it was still pretty stressful. I think I will just stick to my original idea of catering for the next party.
I don't think Isaac knew it was his birthday party but he was in a pretty good mood throughout. Ken's mum was great and helped so much with the food and looking after Isaac. She even put him down for a nap while I was busy with everything else.
Anyway, had a good time overall and Isaac got some really cool pressies!
Friday, 10 January 2014
Hello 2014! I have to say that the year has started off in a bit of a chaotic manner for me. It is now even more impossible to get anything done during the day while Isaac is awake. If you open a drawer, he quickly sticks his fingers in. If you open the dishwasher, he climbs on it. If you pick up your mobile phone, ipad, tv controller, he tries to grab it off you. If you are eating, he jumps up and down shouting 'mum mum' until you give him something to eat. If you put him to sleep, he jumps up and down in his cot and goes to sleep after a lot of coaxing or crying. If you put him in his ball pit/play pan, he throws all the balls out. If you open the fridge, he races to it and grabs anything he can. Even though I am not actually doing a lot of tangible things, I am so tired and frankly, quite stressed. Trying to prepare and stir-fry a 10 minute dish will take me 30 minutes or more.
For my 29th birthday, we went to Lobster Cave. We had vouchers for a nice three-course meal which included lobster. I was really looking forward to it so I made sure I prepared enough things and food to entertain Isaac throughout the lunch. When the day arrived and we sat down for lunch, Isaac also decided it would be the day he would not eat anything. He didn't even want to eat his favourite rice crackers! It was a very lonely three course meal as one of us had to take Isaac out of the restaurant while the other ate because he was making so much noise. There was this other family with a child who was older than Isaac but who sat in his high chair quietly for the whole lunch. I really admired that child but I guess children get their personalities from their parents because his parents were really calm, quiet ones..I hardly saw them even talk to each other. I guess Isaac has our personality or maybe more of Ken's. Very exuberant, inquisitive, active and alert little boy.
Anyhow, little Isaac is definitely a little entertainer and he is turning one very very soon :)
|Me and Isaac|
|Daddy and Isaac|
|Ken had mussels for his entree|
|I had seared tuna for entree|
|Lobster tail with garlic butter rice for our mains|
|Sushi sorbet for dessert|
|My yummilicious birthday cake|